The current state of my heart (i.e., tepid) is not a result of lack of hugging today, but rather the kind of hugs that I have given. I say given because, indeed, they were anything but received. It seems that there are three kinds of emotional hugs (these being a subset of the greater category "hugs"): hugs that give emotional support, hugs that receive emotional support, or hugs that both give and receive emotional support (this is sounding remarkably similar to a chemistry lecture I heard this morning on chemical reactions).
I have given several hugs this evening that were my way of showing how I care for someone else. I love this kind of hug, and I love the fact that I can provide that service when needed. But I am not in a position (right now) to receive a hug which says "Katie, you're loved too." That is mostly because it's 2:30 in the morning and I'm at work. I'm desperately counting down the hours until a coworker gets here to give me a much needed hug.
Tonight has brought a new revelation for me. I had never thought that I could give so many warm embraces and yet so badly want to receive one.
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Aw...here's a hug (of the first kind I guess) from me.
I know this comes a month late, but Val just gave me your blog. Anwyway, if I was there I would give a very big, long I LOVE YOU hug, because I very much do love you! Hope you are well. Your long lost friend Elizabeth.
P.S. sorry I never wrote you back when you wrote just before going to Idaho as a raft guide! I keep the letter on my fridge as incouragment to write, it just never happened.
Upstairs
Hugs aplenty
Be there
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