A little summer crisis to keep me healthy

I haven't had time to post since my last post, what with working 3 jobs for a while plus moving. The new apartment is wonderful, but completely full of boxes which I haven't had time to unpack. The comcast guy came this week so I can actully get on my blog. I didn't have internet for couple of weeks. I still don't have a washer or dryer (going on 4 weeks now) but I'm going up to Portland today and I'm going to do laundry there.

Yesterday at this time I was unsuspectingly getting ready for work. It was my 9th day of training at my new job and the routine is in my body to be awake at 6 AM. I went to work and performed my morning tasks. At about 10 I had a meeting with the woman who was training me and the owner. They told me that they didn't think I had enough time to train and they didn't want me as a manager. They offered me a job as a caregiver. I'm not really clear about what happened; what they wanted from me that I wasn't giving them. I don't know what I could have done to show them that I could handle the job. Because honestly I would have done anything, and I would have been perfect for the job. I got the residents through lunch, turned in my name tag, and walked out of there forever at 1 PM. Oh what a difference a few hours makes.

I spent the rest of the day with friends. I filed for unemployment, hung out of Gary's (where the owner gave me free coffee because I needed it), and was encouraged and loved by friends. We went out for dinner and the waiter gave me a free drink and two free lunch coupons because he knows what it's like to be down on your luck.

I'm quite disappointed and even distraught. I'm hugely dumbfounded, self-conscious and embarassed. I was so happy and proud that I was offered such a cool job, and all of that pretty much has turned to embarassment.

But there are blessings in this too. I spent my evening with very supportive friends. Oddly two from Rain Rock and two from Elder Health, plus one from the upper peninsula. All of them were very loving and reassuring, and I couldn't have had a better evening. I can now go to my family reunion in MI in August. I wasn't going to go because I would be working. I have lots of new opportunities open for what I want to do. I liturally have nothing tying me down right now.

I definitely wish that that hadn't happened, beause it isn't fun. But everyone tells me that it's for a reason and won't feel so icky someday. And honestly I'm starting to feel that in my soul.

More updates later about my life, once I know I'll tell you.